Friday, May 26, 2006
I've been out of town on a business trip and have had a lot of time to reflect -- away from everything on the home front. In my mood of reflection, I finally saw Brokeback Mountain. I know I'm slow at getting around to things, but when you are as closeted as I am, things take time and need to be done at the right time and place. In my situation, I can't run off to see the hottest movie in town when it is R-rated or gay-themed. It just doesn't work.
Now I'm full of regrets. I know it's just a movie, but...
I wish I had never seen it!
Ever since, I've been haunted by deep feelings that I had neatly put away in my past, a lot of hurt, a lot of pain.