In Church yesterday, the question was asked: "So, where would you be if you didn't have the Gospel in your life?"
My immediate thought was: "Duh!...I'd be living with a gay partner somewhere in Europe without a doubt!!!"
The responses were typical from the class members, with one even trying to be funny: "I'd get a 10% raise and Sundays free!"
The teacher went on to discuss the blessings of the Gospel in our lives and that we are a happier and "better" people because of it and therefore we should share it with others - so why wouldn't we?
And I sat on the back row pondering: "Am I really better and happier? Is someone who is living in Europe with a gay partner any less happy or better?"
And then I thought that indeed, I would most likely be in Europe as my ancestors would not have joined the Church and immigrated to the United States. And if I am who I am, I most likely would be in a gay relationship and I would imagine it to be a committed one. I would like to think that it would be one full of love, but who knows - maybe I really would be miserable and a thug of some kind.
So, am I better? Am I happier?
I do know that this isn't a fair question. We can't play the "what if" games. I've done my share of that, and it goes nowhere very quickly. I can't second guess the choices made, or the choices of my parents and their parents who help to make me who I am. I can only go forward from where I am. And where I am is being a gay man who is a husband and father who believes in the gospel... and is happy and better for it.
And yet, I still wonder - where would I be without these blessings / struggles / conflicts / choices in my life?
So where would you be?