Thursday, January 18, 2007

LABELS



* man


* husband


* father


* father of active kids


* loving husband and father of active great kids


* not nearly as loving and attentive husband of a wife who loves him despite everything (even though she still can't figure out why), and father, wishing he had more time to play with the great active kids


* desiring to learn to be more loving and attentive as a husband to a dear and beautiful wife hwo loves him despite everything, and a time-giving father who actually plays with and struggles with his great and beautiful kids.


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* brother


* son


* distant brother and son


* distant and not wanting to be involved with extended family brother and son.


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* average guy


* average non-assuming guy


* average non-assuming, sensitive guy


* average non-assuming, sensitive guy who hates playing basketball


* average non-assuming, sensitive guy who hates playing basketball but loves to watch BYU football


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* approaching middle-age guy


* young-acting but still approaching middle-age guy


* young-acting but still approaching (no more like being pulled by time dragging and kicking) middle-age guy.


* young-acting, doing stupid things (like snowmobiling off cliffs), hair on the wild side (thinking he's "bad") approaching middle-age (but under severe protest) guy.


* young-acting, doing stupid things (like snowmobiling off cliffs), hair on the wild side (thinking he's "bad") approaching middle-age (but under severe protest) thinking he's younger than he really is and fooling himself to think that everyone else thinks he's as young as he wants you to believe (at least I've got lots of hair) guy.

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* designer


* professional designer


* hard-working / self-employed professional designer


* hard-working (working 80-hour weeks) / self-employed professional designer who loves to wear a good looking tie.


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* Mormon


* Believing Mormon


* Believing (though with sincere doubts of everything the Church teaches) Mormon.


* Testimony-bearing, believing (though with sincere doubts of everything the Church teaches) Mormon guy who believes Christ and tries to follow Him by listening to the still small voice.


* Testimony-bearing, believing (with sincere doubts) card-carrying Mormon who tries to follow Christ and listen to the still small voice.


* Testimony-bearing, believing (with doubts) card-carrying, active, priesthood leader-ing and SS teaching life-time Mormon who believes Christ, tries to follow Him and listens (though not nearly as he should as he's getting on into middle age and losing his hearing , at least spiritual hearing) still small voice.


* Testimony-bearing, believing (with doubts) card-carrying, active, priesthood leader-ing and SS teaching, returned missionary, BYU graduate, MTC teaching (wishing he could have made a career living at the MTC) life-time Mormon who believes Christ, tries to follow Him and listens (though not nearly as he should as he's getting on into middle age and losing his hearing , at least spiritual hearing) to the still small voice.


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* Travel-freak


* National Geographic photographer wannabe travel-freak


* Seriously planning on taking a year off sabbatical to discover the world, National Geographic photographer wannabe travel-freak


* Seriously planning on taking a year off sabbatical to discover the world, National Geographic photographer wannabe travel-freak who would be happier on the back roads of a foreign country searching for that perfect photo-moment or cultural-interaction experience than on I-15 in rush hour on the Wasatch Front.


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* Pianist
* Composer
* Piano-playing composer
* Piano-playing composer of several unpublished diddies still in my head, but someday I'll get around to publishing.
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* Southern European affezionato


* Southern European affezionato wishing to find the perfect stone farm house to restore


* Southern European affezionato wishing to find the perfect stone farm house to restore to its 15th C perfection with 21st century comforts like indoor plumbing with hot and cold running water (and a hot tub)

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* Gay

* Gay guy


* Confused and often selfish gay guy


* Struggling gay guy who is "out" only to himself, his wife and a couple of friends (not counting the queerosphere).


* Very closeted, struggling non-practicing gay guy who is "out" only to himself, his wife and a couple of friends (not counting the queerosphere) who loves young good-looking guys


* Struggling non-practicing, closeted gay guy, who dreams constantly of kissing and loving young guys wishing the guys he loves were gay too.

* Struggling to find himself, trying to not be too self-absorbed while at the same time trying not to be too self-depreciating, self-hating, self-loathing, non-practicing closeted (though the door is opening and light is penetrating the dark corners of his hidden world) gay guy who dreams constantly of kissing and loving young guys wishing the guys he loves were gay too while at the same time being everything else and so much more as noted above.



You and I can label me any way we want...

but I'm still just me,

trying to do the best I can,

to be "me".




4 comments:

Beck said...

This blogger post is driving me crazy! Something happened to the left margin and I can't fix it and so part of this post is incomprehensible... Of course all of my blogging is incomprehensible so I guess it really doesn't matter.

Even so - it's frustrating! AAGGH!

santorio said...
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santorio said...

another affezionato here; lived in bela napoli for three years but left my heart in assisi [or was it sienna... or gubio?]

Beck said...

I've left my heart in Assisi, Siena, and Gubbio as well, but also Vernazza, and Belluno, and Carcassonne, and San Remo, and...

I haven't left my heart in "Bella Napoli" as it got run over in a smog-choked traffic jam... no, my affections are for the smaller lost-in-time-and-space places...