I had a remarkable experience yesterday in meeting another MoHo. I really have never intended to meet anyone, and have told others that I don't make this a habit or even a goal, but it happened again, and it was so wonderful!
We had lunch and then just talked. It was so good to feel spiritually and brotherly connected in such a miraculous way with someone so incredible.
None of this would have happened, this connection, except for this "Community of Saints" that is this blogging queerosphere. I remember discussing this with Samantha about a month ago when we met and she stated emphatically back to me that this is no mere coincidence, this connection we make with each other. It is real! It is a miracle!
I believe it is a miracle, too! I feel very happy today. I feel very at peace. We are all on different paths with different challenges. Some are transitioning into marriage. Others are transferring out of marriages. Some are struggling with any kind of relationship. Some are dealing with MOM commitments and challenges, while others are contemplating other kinds of relationships, including gay partnerships, celibacy etc. Some have left or are contemplating leaving the church, others are remaining faithful, while others aren't sure, while even others have left and are now miraculously coming back. There is no "ONE WAY" in our lives. And right now, I don't care which way you are going or what you may be dealing with. I just want to say "thank you" for being part of my life.
I'm not sure what I expect to evolve with this blog. I use it for my "alter-ego" to speak and have voice in a world where "Beck" is silent otherwise. I guess, in that sense, there will always be a reason for "Beck" to exist. Is this good? Am I compartmentalizing? Am I becoming schizo? I don't think so... I think "Beck" is helping me to become a better me...
Yesterday I met a wonderful person that made me feel wonderful to be who I am. We bonded. It was wonderful!
Thank you all for your voices, your efforts to do your best, your influences on me to do better!